Constant Intoxication with the Unknown

I like to think. Not heavily on important, stressful topics or light, easy ones; I like to think about anything and everything. Some people get their kicks by talking and others by doing, but like the title suggests, I'm enthralled by knowledge. This overpowering thirst for a complete overview of all things previously unknown frequently causes be to overcautious (some might even say obsessive) about certain aspects of my life. For example, when I meet a new person, I'd prefer it that I know all there is to know about everything (their likes, interests, dreams, etc.) before they even find out my favorite color. As I find out about a new game coming out, I'd like to know specific details that would give me an edge before anyone knows what the game is. When I hear a new song or watch a movie, I go out of my way to find every minute detail about the artist or actors and explore their different fields of work. Now I know that I might be radiating signs of an obsessive, psychopathic person, but of course I'm only human, and everyone displays certain... overbearing or... odd qualities about themselves that makes them who they are, I just feel more comfortable writing these down then others. Now this justification of my obvious insanity isn't just a filler, I want to discuss my observations of others and possible psychological flaws in my peers as well as myself. (For those who don't know me, I swear I'm "normal". Occasionally thinking is something I do on the side, just go with it). 


I have witnessed, firsthand, fear controlling a person's actions. Whether it be fear of what others would think or the fear of consequences, this fear changes people, especially in high school. I know that later in life, my social status in high school won't effect my future job or happiness. I know that the most important thing in high school, is finding opportunities and exploiting them. With that being said, I also know that personally, my social status in high school is a big deal. (Psychological faults- 1, Total amount of sense made- 0). 


From what I've gathered over my few years of observation, I can see that although a certain path would be the best decision for your future, one might stray down another to gain that instant gratification. We as humans have slowly evolved into these creatures that want everything at the fastest speed possible, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. This shows how we as a species have adapted to the knowledge of our past and are prepared to tackle future knowledge. However, the down side is that we want that future knowledge now. I think that we need to slow down, take a deep breath, and let it out. Yes, my remedy for rash decisions is patience and intelligence. You don't have to base your decisions off of fear, you can learn to become the person you want to be simply by thinking. Your guiding light will always be there to help you see where you need to go, you just need to open your eyes. (Involuntary biblical reference? You can check that one off the list). Everyone knows that you can't climb a tree without first going out on a limb, but without intelligence, you might end up falling on your ass. I guess I'm trying to say that this irrational fear can be tamed and relinquished with a dash of precaution and willpower.