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Thursday, May 31, 2012

Guess Who's Back?

Wow, I take a 2 month leave of absence from blogging and so much has happened! I learned to love again, unfortunately, it was with the wrong person. It seems like that's a good place to start soo... This was the shortest "relationship" I've every had, however, I think I've learned more about myself and sharing love in the few weeks we were together than in my short 17 years of existence on this planet. She taught me what it means to open your heart and love to your heart's content. She taught me to share my feeling and connect with another on an emotional level. And lastly, she taught me what happiness is and how important it is for everyone to feel as happy as they can. Our short lived relationship ended over a surprise text and at first I didn't know how to handle it. 
"Im tired. Im tired of us fighting. im tired of you always making me feel bad and honestly you make me feel uncomfortable. Your too touchy. Im sorry to be blunt but thats how i have to do it" 
Of course at first I was devastated, distraught and dumbfounded. There's not enough time in the universe for my to even try to begin to understand how she must have felt and maybe how she still feels about everything. After several days of thought, I came to the conclusion that she wasn't happy. And if she wasn't happy, I was fine with her ending things. I just wish she would have vocalized her problems sooner. But there isn't much I can do about that now except learn from the past and apply it to my future relationships. 
Oh gosh, that feels good to get out! 
What else was new...? Oh yeah! Prom was last Saturday! I danced my ass off and had a great time but of course you know prom isn't a big deal because of the dancing; it's the after party. But that's a story for another night :)